SHOULD I

I can’t sleep by over thinking, I used this a lot when there is something new ideas or sometimes I’m thinking of my crush but this is really different. I was trying to think how should I live and how do I start from the beginning. Ideas and thinking for the future are not the same. But the thing is that I’m scared to do it and those ideas need to do. My own laziness is brought me down to the bottom of the sea is like you can’t swim because you are heavy.

I really wanted to find some motivation to start it, I am a dreamer and I remember that my best friend told me that the reason why she supports of me because of weirdness.Should I take those challenge to face my fear and start the new beginning going to the way that where I am happy? what do you think?